I set a personal speed record today.
Ten miles up a steep valley (well, five miles up, five miles down) in
under three hours! It was storming for most of the hike, so I
got soaked and chilled to the bone. Oh,
and I wiped out at one point so my right leg is covered in road rash. But otherwise it was a lot of fun. Perfect, even. The sun came out and said hello just as I reached the tarn.
But that’s not really what I want to talk about in this post. I’ve had an epiphany and I think I’d like to
share it with you.
There was a girl at the movies that caught my eye. She was tiny, emaciated, legs-as-thin-as-my-arms,
and it didn’t send me into a jealous fit.
I looked at her, and while I thought she looked fine, I had no urge to be her.
I think I'm starting to develop a rational, achievable body image goal. I don’t want to be waifish. I
want to be fit. Yay, me?
Even though at times I make huge leaps backward in my struggle toward
recovery, it still feels really good to take small steps forward. They add up, those baby steps. In the end I know they will bring me to exactly
where I need to be.
hey..m a recent follower of ur amazing blog..ya i mean it..d pictures u post of ur outdoors r so very beautiful...nd when u said here u will not b judged,gave a kind relief..coz u r constantly judged everywhere...btw its nice to see someone feeling good in their own skin nd moving towards a fit body..it needs inner strength.
ReplyDeleteThank you for thinking my blog is amazing! I feel like I'm just rambling odd thoughts, haha.
DeleteYou're right. Everywhere you go, you are judged and it drives me crazy. My most earnest hope is that people will learn to love themselves, no matter what. It's what I hope for myself as well. That starts by everyone getting off their high-horse, realizing no one is perfect, and then loving them for it.
Thank you for the comment, Scarlett. It means a lot :)
Yay for baby steps! You can do this, just keep going, one tiny step at a time. You just be you, the healthiest & happiest you inside and out! xxx
ReplyDeleteThank you for your continued warm thoughts and positive thinking, Claire. I admit, I look forward to hearing your input on my posts. They're always so upbeat and seem to be insta-smile material.
DeleteThank you, thank you, thank you!
Even thought it might not seem like it, that's a huge improvement. The biggest change always starts out small and grows over time. Being fit and strong opens up far more opportunities for you; you can do so much more with a strong body than with a weak one.
ReplyDeleteI keep telling myself that. Thank you for the confirmation, it means a lot to me :)
DeleteThat's really good :) Baby steps, it's really the only way to go. If you take leaps you'll only end up disappointing yourself. Take leaps when your ready <3
ReplyDelete-Emma
So true! Definitely words to live by. Thank you, Emma.
DeleteYour workout sounds heavenly. How relaxing and sweet.
ReplyDeleteAnd your new body image sounds just perfect! Keep up the fabulous work one baby step at a time. :-)
I don't know what I'd do with hiking! It's my exercise, therapy and mediation all rolled into one.
DeleteThank you for your kind words and support! They are very much appreciated.