Thursday, July 16, 2015

Just Like a Delicious Chocolate Bunny

I have not purged in several months.  I rarely binge.  There are days that will go by with no thought to my ED.  If you have not tried therapy, and you actually (really, truly, completely) want to recover, it may be just the thing to help you get you on the right path.  At least, it worked for me.  Is working for me.

There are still bad days.  It is difficult sometimes to separate normal thoughts and reactions from the niggling voice of my ED.  Today has been rough.  I have not eaten yet, though I have tried.  Everything is too much, and the one bite I managed tasted both bland and overwhelmingly awful.  There is a spike of fear at how good it feels to be empty.  My hollow stomach matches my flat affect.  It is so hard to care.