I just got off the phone with my "coach", i.e. over-the-phone goal coaching offered through my work. He was the one I finally told about my ED. He was the one that offered the resources I used to schedule an appointment with a counselor. Turns out, my honesty has lead to me being "excused" from the coaching program. Read: Kicked out of the program because I am too damaged.
Don't get me wrong, I really couldn't give two fucks about the coaching program itself. Not once in the six years I participated did it help me reach a goal. That was done on my own, with determination and hard work. I sign up for the program for one reason, and only one reason: it is a requirement of qualifying for a large discount on my health insurance. When I asked about this, my "coach" informed me that I would have to contact my Human Resources department to find out if the requirement can be waived. Sorry, nothing else he can do to help.
Now I have the choice of paying an extra $600 a year for health insurance, or fessing up to my employer that I have an ED. Fuck. Fuckity. Fuck. Fuck.
This whole reaching-out-for-help thing better pan out, because it is already wreaking havoc on my life. On that note, my first counseling appointment is tomorrow morning and I have ZERO idea what to expect. Any advice or hints would be much appreciated.
On a complete different note, have you guys see this amazing video (only 1:30 minutes, not a huge time commitment)? http://time.com/3669876/this-girl-can-ad-sport-england/ As someone who touts exercise as a cure for pretty much any ailment, I'm incredibly excited. The U.S. would do well to follow suit with a similar campaign.